Wednesday, December 31, 2008
KOTONG BOYS

Friday, December 26, 2008
Decode = Wariin

Wariin
Para-madami

paano ako makakapagdesisyon kung ano ang tama?
kung inuulap mo ang aking isipan.
hindi ako nananalo. talo ka sa laban parati.
hindi magiging akin kailanman ang aking pagmamay-ari.
kung lagi mong kinukuha ang mga gilid. (hahaha)
pero hindi mu makukuha ang aking pride
hindi, hindi ngayon. hindi ngayon.

koro: (keroro? haha)
paano tayo napunta rito?
kilala talaga kita dati pa.
paano tayo napunta rito?
sa tingin ko alam ko.

ang katotohanan ay nagtatago sa iyong mga mata.
at nakabitay ito sa iyong dila.
kumukulo lang sa aking dugo.
akala mo hindi ko nakikita.
anong klaseng lalaki ka?
kung lalaki ka nga talaga.
tutuklasin ko ito ng ako lang.
(ako'y sumisigaw na mahal talaga kita) ng ako lang.
ang aking alaala ay hindi mo mawawari. (koro)

nakikita mo ba ang ating ginawa?
tayo'y nawala at gumawa ng katarantaduhan sa ating sarili (sorry hindi ko alam, hahaha.)
nakikita mo ba ang ating ginawa?
tayo'y nawala at gumawa ng katarantaduhan sa ating sarili .

yeah! :)))))
(koro maliban sa huling linya)
kilala talaga kita dati pa.
sa tingin ko alam ko.
sa tingin ko alam ko.

meron isang bagay na nakikita ko sau.
baka patayin ako nito.
gusto kong maging totoo ito

Friday, December 19, 2008
dear broken heart..

A RE-POST. FOR DIANE (who's looking forward to a warm Christmas)

AND FOR EVERYONE WHO NEEDS THIS.

This post is dedicated to all those going through difficult matters of the heart!

“diary of a broken heart”, this was my planned title for a diary-of-sorts that i wanted to write when i was brokenhearted once. I thought to myself, what if isulat ko lahat ng nararamdaman ko araw araw sa loob ng isang taon, then i’d be able to read it when i am healed, and see my journey from a new point of view, from denial to anger to bitterness to hope to healing (or whatever jumbled order you’ve experienced in your own love life) and maybe, it might be able to help future broken hearts out there.

But, i never got to writing it.

Siguro dahil sa sobrang sakit, kapag naiisp kong magsulat, nananalo na lang yung kagustuhan kong magmukmok sa isang tabi. Imbis na mag-effort pa ako na mag-isip at magpagod, ginusto ko na lang na wala na lang akong intindihin. Hanggang sa lumipas ang mga linggo, mga buwan, i went through all kinds of emotions (na slightly nakakabaliw talaga yung iba ha!), until one day, i was okay.

Having said all that, and having heard some of the most saddening break-up stories the past weeks, allow me to try to reconstruct a few of the one things i’ve learned in life, and love, that might help that broken heart of yours or of someone you know.

1.) On advice

Kapag broken hearted ka.. No advice said to you will make you feel better. None. As in. Wala. Kahit ano, walang effect. Kapag brokenhearted ka, the only thing that you think will make you feel better is if the one you love will say they love you too. But they won’t. (in some cases, they won’t ever, but in some, they won’t just for this point in time.) Hugs will comfort you, concerned texts will make you smile, but no amount of advice will make you feel better.. Unless! Unless you decide to let it make you fell better. Don’t be pressured though to follow everyone’s advice. Kanya kanya lang yan. Of the one hundred cliché lines thrown at you at an attempt to make you feel better, most will not make you feel better (in fact, some will make you feel worse), but there will be a few major lines (not necessarily given by those closest to you, mind you) that will speak to you and touch your heart and soothe your soul. Those pieces of advice, you hold on to.

2.) On prayer

A broken heart will wake up some days so unbelievably hopeless and wanting to just stay in bed all day. Some will even go all out in saying they want to die (but of course you don’t really want to die, right?) A broken heart will wake up some days feeling somewhat rested and peaceful, but with a slight fear that they might encounter something that day that will bring back all the pain. Whatever mood the broken heart wakes up, one thing remains. It’s a broken heart. And this may sound cheesy or false to some, but there is only one thing that can heal all things broken. Our Lord and personal savior, Jesus Christ. When your heart is peaceful, give thanks. When your heart is troubled, still give thanks and ask for deliverance. When your heart is shattered into a million pieces, still give thanks, and ask that you may learn whatever life lesson it is that he wants you to learn. In both high and low, give thanks, because it is one of the surest things in life that God only works for the good of those who love him.

3.) On moving on

Don’t be pressured! For some it takes weeks. For some, months. For some years! Of course no one likes the pain that a broken heart brings. (its pain like no other! Araaay talaga grabe!) but, you have to go through it. There is no short cut, there is no other way. Go through it. Go and let it out. Cry before you sleep, cry when you wake up, cry in the bathroom, cry to your friends. Lock yourself in the room, stay in bed all day, don’t talk to anyone for hours, make senti all you want. Do it all. Don’t let anybody stop you. (but don’t let it get in the way of school or work or the things you have to do either! Okay.) Feel all those yucky, disgusting, heart-shattering feelings, curl it all up into this unbelievably sad ball, and one day, when you are ready, throw it out the window. It will happen for you. I know you feel it won’t, that the day you will be okay will never come, but it will. Have faith, it will.

Let me stop at this third point and end by saying that i’ve felt all those feelings of hopelessness and worthlessness that you might be feeling right now. And, honestly, so have thousands, and millions of other people around you. It sucks. It really does. But hey. Nobody said that it would be easy, but nobody said that you have to do it alone.

All this share with pure sincerity from the bottom of my happy heart, to your soon-to-be happy heart! =)

got the article from shayne (http://heavenstears09.multiply.com/journal)

Originally posted by bianca @ 7:10 pm april 19, 2008 (http://superbianca.blogspot.com)

Friday, December 12, 2008
i-n-v-i-s-i-b-l-e

waaaaaa!

nalulungkot ako!

dapat ako nlng ung nsa kalagayan ni ano eh.

edi sana nakita na uli kita.

bakit ganun? sa kwento ni ano, bakit parang patuloy ka lang na nag-iimprove, ako ata hindi!?

andaya mo tlga! puro nlng papuri natatanggap mo kahit hindi mo nman kakilala.

ang hirap imaginin ung mga kinwento ni ano.

habang iniisip ko, lalo lang kitang namimiss.

pero pag nandyan ka na, ewan ko. hindi ko rin naman alam ang gagawin.

gusto kitang makita. makausap. mayakap.

pero ayokong makita mo rin ako.

nahihiya ako eh. natatakot. mmm. natatakot sa kung ano ang iisipin mo.

*feeling ko may superiority complex ka na! tas ako inferiority chuva. hehe.*

anyway, sana invisible nlng ako. mmm. para kahit nandyan ka,

hindi ko na kailangan pang tumakbo papalayo para lang makapagtago.

waaaaaa!!!!!! nalulungkot tlga ko. . .

kailan nga kaya tlga ulit kita makakasama?

i-n-v-i-s-i-b-l-e

waaaaaa!

nalulungkot ako!

dapat ako nlng ung nsa kalagayan ni ano eh.

edi sana nakita na uli kita.

bakit ganun? sa kwento ni ano, bakit parang patuloy ka lang na nag-iimprove, ako ata hindi!?

andaya mo tlga! puro nlng papuri natatanggap mo kahit hindi mo nman kakilala.

ang hirap imaginin ung mga kinwento ni ano.

habang iniisip ko, lalo lang kitang namimiss.

pero pag nandyan ka na, ewan ko. hindi ko rin naman alam ang gagawin.

gusto kitang makita. makausap. mayakap.

pero ayokong makita mo rin ako.

nahihiya ako eh. natatakot. mmm. natatakot sa kung ano ang iisipin mo.

*feeling ko may superiority complex ka na! tas ako inferiority chuva. hehe.*

anyway, sana invisible nlng ako. mmm. para kahit nandyan ka,

hindi ko na kailangan pang tumakbo papalayo para lang makapagtago.

waaaaaa!!!!!! nalulungkot tlga ko. . .

kailan nga kaya tlga ulit kita makakasama?

Monday, December 01, 2008
the name decoder